Placing your trust in God opens the door for Him to work miracles out of messes – transforming your weakness into godly character
I grew up in the church, I have always considered myself a solid Christian who does all of the right things. When my mom died and then my husband cheated, my world was turned upside down. In the weeks that followed, I was a mess. My brain was mush. It was all I could do to feed my dogs and make sure I was showering/eating/breathing. I eventually found myself in an “a-ha” moment that – I cant do this without God.
My mess:
When my mom died, I was really mad at God. I had prayed for months and months for Him to heal her. I know that He can, and over the course of her being sick, I prayed constantly to keep her here with me. When He didn’t, I felt betrayed and abandoned by God. He could have saved my mom and He chose not to. What kind of God does that? I was angry and I turned my back on him.
I shut down. I didn’t go to church. I stopped my daily devotion and Bible study. I didn’t pray. I was so angry with God, that I couldn’t bring myself to do all the things that I’d done when my faith had never been tested.
And then my husband cheated. Six weeks after my mom had passed.
My life and everything I loved was gone – in a matter of months.
My new reality wasn’t something I was capable of acknowledging at the time. I was initially in just total survival mode. (not to go into detail but it was weeks of cops, lawyers, intermediaries, councilors, court orders, more cops. Tt was a mess)
But once the fog lifted and my situation set in, I was on my knees.
I finally had time to breathe, stop, assess, and think.
My mom was gone. My mom was everything to me. My husband was gone. My husband was my other everything. The two people that were the most important things In.My.Life were gone and I was alone.
I was not prepared. I was not capable. I was not strong enough. I didn’t have the tools. I didn’t have the foundation I thought I had. I was lost. I realized I was a Christian but had never had to prove it.
My miracle:
God got my attention!
He took me to a place where it was literally just me and God – I had to face him alone. I had nothing left, and that’s when I realized, I had everything I needed! This was the plan all along. He knew this would happen. Of course, He did. He wanted my attention. And He got it. And here I am now, feeling blessed, alive, excited about my future, and completely and utterly committed to living my life for God’s kingdom.
My mess was the loss of my loved ones. My miracle is this new relationship & commitment I have with my heavenly Father.
My prayer & hope for you today is that you let God work miracles out of those messes in your life. We aren’t perfect, and we’re not meant to be. But what we do & how we respond to those imperfections is what makes us who we are – give God control and see what amazing things He can do for you.
XO
Tay
