You will face different types of pain as you go through life. You have to choose which kind of pain you want – the pain of pressing through or the pain of giving up – only the pain of pushing through brings reward.

I don’t know about you, but for me, choosing the pain of pressing through is HARD!

I know there is pain either way, I get that. But why is the pain of giving up so much easier to embrace? I think because it doesn’t take the same amount of work. Giving in to giving up is like falling into darkness – no effort is needed, just let go and keep falling down, until you get to a place where you can’t get up.

In the past when I’ve gone through something horrible, my natural reaction was to consume myself in anguish and grief. I felt bad for myself, I counted all the things that I didn’t have instead of all the things that I did, I wore that pain like a permanent scar and had every excuse to never take it off. I did everything I could to numb my pain, and felt totally validated in my self-destruction “YOU dont know what I’ve been through” …

Honestly, one of the main reason I decided to push through & look for hope this time around, was because this pain & loss was SO extreme, I was afraid that if I gave into it and let it take over me (like I had allowed in the past) I’d be lost to it forever – and I’m just not willing to let that happen. In spite of everything, I love life and desperately want to enjoy it while I’m here.

What I know is that my life is going to hurt either way – I could either be in pain and be stuck in misery (possibly forever) OR I could painfully (but also bravely) fight for a better life and maybe I’ll get there. All this loss & grief is inevitably going to remake me, but its not going to define me!

I am pressing through.

So I prayed. On my knees, through ugly tears and without an ounce of understanding, I prayed. I didn’t know what I was praying for, I just asked God to help me (sometimes I have to remind myself that God knows our hearts – so even if I don’t know what I need to ask for, he does). Through these prayers, I started getting my first feelings of hope. And man, once I felt it, I knew the pain of pressing through would be worth it. It’s not easy – but NONE of this is easy, friend. But God never promised us a life without pain or sorrow, he simply promised that he would be with us through it all.

My prayer for you today is that you see how precious you are and how important you are – you are worth fighting for. The pain you are feeling will either get you nowhere, or it can take you to a place of peace, purpose and fulfillment. I pray you choose to press through the pain – don’t give up and let’s get to the other side together.

XO

Tay

why is the pain of giving up so much easier to embrace? I think because it doesn’t take the same amount of work upfront, does it?! 

Giving in to giving up is like falling into darkness – no effort is needed, just let go and keep falling down, until you get to a place where you can’t get up.

In the past when I’ve gone through something horrible, my natural reaction was to consume myself in anguish and grief. I felt bad for myself, I counted all the things that I didn’t have instead of all the things that I did, I wore that pain like a permanent scar and had every excuse to never take it off. I did everything I could to numb my pain, and felt totally validated in my self-destruction “YOU dont know what I’ve been through” …

I am pressing through.

So I prayed. On my knees, through ugly tears and without an ounce of understanding, I prayed. I didn’t know what I was praying for, I just asked God to help me (sometimes I have to remind myself that God knows our hearts – so even if I don’t know what I need to ask for, he does). Through these prayers, I started getting my first feelings of hope. And man, once I felt it, I knew the pain of pressing through would be worth it. It’s not easy – but NONE of this is easy, friend. But God never promised us a life without pain or sorrow, he simply promised that he would be with us through it all.

My prayer for you today is that you see how precious you are and how important you are – you are worth fighting for. The pain you are feeling will either get you nowhere, or it can take you to a place of peace, purpose and fulfillment. I pray you choose to press through the pain – don’t give up and let’s get to the other side together.