Have you ever done something and then afterward thought to yourself  “Wow. I didn’t know I had that in me!”

Yup!

It’s a really cool feeling and a very empowering one – but the catch to that is, you probably had to do something you didn’t want to do. You probably had to struggle before you found your strength!

It’s been 2 years since my mom passed away (very suddenly). 

It’s been 2 years since my marriage ended (very suddenly). 

It’s been 2 years since everything in my life changed and I’ve had to fight for a new life, a new normal, a new me … 

I am not thankful that my mom is gone. 

I am not thankful that my ex-husband could not beat his demons. 

I am not thankful for all the pain that changed my life, that stole my peace, my love, and my innocence. 

But guess what – I AM thankful that I chose to fight – that I decided I didn’t want to live with pain and sadness forever and I was not going to let it win.

i will never understand why God chose this path for me, but i can see how strong I’ve become and how much I’ve changed and I am insanely proud of the person I am now. 

I have a peace and a confidence that only comes from surviving being thrown into the fire.  I found a strength I didn’t know I had because I survived something I didn’t think I could.

Getting down in the dirt and having no choice but to fight – you find something in you that you never would have known existed. You find that inner strength. You find a warrior that is ready to fight & win!

Because of my struggle, I realized I’m a freaking warrior! And you are too!

In the weeks & months after everything happened, I prayed constantly for God to help me understand why. 

WHY would he do this to me? 

I never got direct answers, and I had to live in pain, confusion and darkness for a long time before i accepted that i might never know why, but one answer could be that God needed me to change and this struggle was the only way that was going to happen. 

We all have a warrior spirit inside of us. Unfortunately, most of us dont tap into it unless we’re given no other choice 

There are few things I know with every fiber of my being

• God wants the best for us
• Sometimes bad things have to happen in order for something better to come about
• we are ALWAYS stronger than we give ourselves credit for
• And with God, all things are possible. 

My prayer for you today is that you take a hard look at what you have overcome in your life and be proud of yourself. Truly proud of how strong you are and guess what – you dont have to stop there. Keep going, keep pushing, keep healing & overcoming & fighting for what you want and need in your life. You are a warrior who has earned their stripes and Im so proud of you. 

XO

Tay